Paralyzed by fear
I feel unable to do anything cause I am so afraid that anything I do might make me feel worse. I would like to take a normal shower, I am afraid though that i will feel dizzy, that I will have to dry my hair and the tinnitus will be worse. I would like to wash my face, I am afraid of my eye though. I would like to take off my headphones, I am afraid I will have tinnitus. I would like to start walkiing, the glasses I wear and headphones make me more dizzy I think then if I didn't have them. I've never been so incapable of overcoming my fear, but it's because the fears never were about my body and that I might hurt myself. It's horrible. On the positive note, I didnt take tilidin today in the night. I had a headache though and I took ibuprofen, which helped I think better than tilidine. I had the first appointment with physiotherapist today. She is very good, empathetic and competent. She did a lot of massages on my face, neck and head, also the scar area. It was a bit pa...
